When you are younger and think of your one-day-wedding most look forward to trying on wedding dresses. I know I did.
After getting engaged I started to look around at different styles and I hit the realisation that I’m not the girly-girl I once was. Way back when I did my debutante ball I wore a strapless gown with beading and a full skirt. It was beautiful and I felt great however now the thought of wearing a dress like that gives me anxiety. Now there is no proclaiming that I’m a tom boy through and through because obviously I’m not. I enjoy make up and I love fashion and everything that comes with being a girl but I’ve never felt more unlike me then when I went to try on wedding dresses.
We; Mum, best friend Bonnie and I, have a trip planned to the Grace Loves Lace showrooms later this month. I feel funny telling you all that because there is a huge chance I might not find anything up there that I feel comfortable in but whatever. (For those who don’t know GLL only have a showroom on the Gold Coast). Before heading up there for that appointment my Mum suggested we have a look around locally and see what’s about so off we went at the beginning of this week. Now it’s not that I didn’t enjoy the experience because it was great picking out dresses and having someone help you get in and out of them. It was lovely!
But it was like I was trying them on for someone else.
It was although I wasn’t doing it for my wedding and it was scary because I’ve never felt so not me wearing something so beautiful. That feeling confirmed that finding a dress that I feel comfy in is going to be hard and that scares the shit out of me. Normally when you put on a beautiful item of clothing you feel gorgeous and amazing but I just felt like a fraud.
There is a dress I bought back in March that I thought I could potentially wear and I love it but it is so different. Isaac and I are all for breaking traditions when it comes to how the day is going to run but I worry about what he will think if he sees me in that dress. I’m scared of being self-conscious on the most special day but then again, I don’t want to wear something that makes me want to pull my hair out…
Yesterday I felt guilty feeling like this because I’m a really chilled person and it’s such a trivial thing to be hyped up about but today I feel like it’s okay. It’s okay that I tried the big poof-y dresses on and they didn’t work. It’s okay that I’m unsure on what to wear because at the end of the day our wedding day is going to special no matter what. It’s going to reflect us, our relationship and vibe so if I get married in a dress I bought from a local boutique – COOL or something I find at GLL – AWESOME orrrr if I potentially have to find something else – it’s all going to be okay!
Have any of you had an experience like this? Where you just didn’t feel like you or love an experience even though you felt like you should have?
Gwendolynne Burkin’s bridal showroom in Fitzroy. Photo – Lucy Feagins / The Design Files
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