Hello. Hi. I’m back.
I would say this feels weird but I would be telling you a big fat lie. I actually spent a lot of my time away writing without a deadline and it was glorious! So although you gems haven’t been seeing anything being published I did spend my time behind the scenes word vomiting into my drafts. A few months ago I mentioned I wanted to put more of me into this space and focus on writing so I’ve been putting that into action. It gives me the warm fuzzy feeling of excitement. If I’m honest this whole hormone/mental breakdown I’ve been having, and sharing it openly with all of you guys, has made me feel more connected to this space.
My days at home, when I wasn’t crying or napping thanks to my hormones, have been spent reading or writing. Without any intention or purpose. And I fucking needed that. I did spend a lot of time my time away being completely and unapologetically lazy. I smashed my way through way too many Netflix series and that is okay. My body was going through some stuff and brain wasn’t keeping up…. So that kinda explains the crying at Simba being ridiculously cute and yelling at Isaac to NOT TOUCH ME when his arm brushed mine on the way past in the hall….
There is this pressure in the online industry to get the jobs, make it big and churn out so much content monthly. You’ve always got to be ON. You’ve got to be THERE. Waiting. This break has made me realize that I can step back and everything won’t fall apart. I can’t remember the last time I really turned off. On my honeymoon, I was uploading, right up until the wedding, in Bali and every experience I’ve always been thinking about photo opportunities or what to share on stories. Stepping back has made me set some boundaries and realize what I value and what I want you guys to get from my content.
I know a bunch of you love the make up thing and I still want to do beauty content. That will never ever change. BUT. I also want to share more of my life. I’m always so worried that our house isn’t Instagram worthy. GUYS WE LIVE IN A RENTAL WITH CHEAP AS CHIPS FURNITURE BECAUSE WE ARE IN OUR EARLY 20’S. There I said it. And that’s okay. Our kitchen is green, our bathroom has horrid vinyl wanna-be floorboards in it but this is where we live and if I show that in the background nobody actually gives a fuck. This break has made me realise I want to share more normal junk because it makes me feel connected to y’all and hopefully that is a two-way thing.
So there is a gigantic word vom for you to enjoy. I’m here. I’m back. Not sure at what kind of capacity – just what I can handle. My body is still playing catch up but I am feeling more stable. The aim is one blog post a week and hopefully one Instagram a day but as I said just what I can handle. I can’t make any promises yet.
Thank you guys for sticking around while I lose my shit quite openly online. You guys are the best.
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