Finally. The Weekly Notes are back now that Frocktober is all done and dusted! I know a tonne of you guys missed it but October was so busy I just couldn’t seem to get anything I normally do done.
I don’t have too much to tell you all about so I’ve decided to instead give you an update on my hormone treatment and mental health. A backstory for those who aren’t up-to-date is that I’ve had hormone troubles for the past two years and after supplementation failed me my dietician and hormone specialist have decided that I now need to move into other methods of treatment. I am super young so the thought process is – get shit sorted now so when I am ready to have kids I don’t have to go through it all then. That for me is progesterone troches which are a natural bioidentical hormone treatment. I know there are other methods however this is what we decided was right for me.
Anywho. When I first decided to go ahead with the progesterone troche therapy I never gave two thoughts to how it may affect me. In all honesty, my main focus was just to get my hormones in check so they were balanced and everything was completely fabulous. In my head, I thought ‘this will be super easy, I will take the troche as required then in a few months we will retest’. Done. Finished.
Things have been a little tough, to say the least. You know in Gossip Girl where Blair asks Chuck to say those 3 words, 9 letters blah blah blah like that but only WAY WAY WAY worse. This is my first cycle on the troches and the past week has easily been the toughest I can remember. I am totally fatigued but I’m unable to sleep properly, I have had the worst PMS symptoms ever and I would say a week of pretty intense depression-like feelings. I cry at the drop of a hat.
It has been fucking overwhelming and completely intense.
I know that I don’t have depression and that mentally I will be okay but it’s been really fucking hard. At first, I thought it was just being rundown from Frocktober content and that I needed to step back a little however it’s only got progressively worse. My brain has been so foggy. I can’t think straight and with blogging, if you can’t produce content then you’re pretty much screwed. I am struggling and need to prioritize my life for a little while. I am scared that I’ll lose my reach or that my PR contacts will dwindle but for the next few weeks/months I need to just focus on making sure I’m okay.
And for anyone out there that is going through hormone issues. I get it. I get why people struggle. I get why it is hard and taxing. Please reach out if you know someone who is going through it because it is fucking tough.
This isn’t goodbye forever but it is a hey-see-you-sometimes-but-not-all-the-time-while-I-get-my-shit-together.
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