I tweeted about doing this post and I was apprehensive. Mainly because I don’t think anyone should be defined by the number on the scales. I didn’t want this post to be ‘oh hey look at me and how much weight I’ve lost’ because it’s a number and really it doesn’t matter – what matters is how you feel.
WHERE IT ALL STARTED
Going back 18 months ago I really wasn’t happy within myself and as a new years resolution, and after getting engaged at the end of 2015, I joined a gym. The whole focus was feeling better about myself. I wanted to gain my self-confidence back and feel good for when we eventually got married. I just wanted my confidence back! When I had my consultation at the gym where they make your plan up I actually said that I didn’t want to loose any weight but mainly I wanted to improve my fitness. I don’t want to say I wasn’t telling the truth because I did really want that but I think I was cautious about making loosing weight a focus incase it didn’t happen – I didn’t want to put a number on it. Now I’m looking back it was a great decision for me personally because there was no number goal and it meant I didn’t give up in those first few months.
I guess I’ll get numbers out of the way and my starting weight was 75kg and for my height that’s not too bad. If you’re a long time follower I’ve struggled with a reoccuring disease that has hindered doing any exercise over the past 5 years because I’ve always been scared. Over that time I’ve managed to maintain 75-77kg without restricting my diet or doing any exercise at all. My weight currently as I write this is 61.5kg. I should also point out although I didn’t think of myself as ‘fat’ or ‘overweight’ in the slightest I was bigger for ME and when I started on this health kick in February 2016 in terms of exercise I did start from the bottom (diet wise I was ok but still needed some changes to be made). I remember my first consultation at the gym and I left crying because I couldn’t do simple things that the trainer was asking me to do. I’m young but didn’t have any athletic ability at all and it was fucking tough but if you’re there – trust me it does get better with time you just have to accept that it’s going to be a tough couple of months.
After joining the gym and doing things on my own for a bit I was feeling good but I wanted to feel better. Alot of you will know that I’ve had ALOT of tummy issues in the past. I’m lactose intolerant and also don’t react very well to gluten whilst also being vegetarian. I’d never had any of my intolerances sorted out by a professional so I decided to see a nutritionist in about June of 2016 to see if I was on track. This was a game-changer for me because it helped me get all that sorted and also guide me with foods I should/shouldn’t be consuming. I’m a huge planner and I love sticking to a routine so this really helped me and motivated me to eat better than ever.
So whilst seeing Pip (my nutritionists name is Pip) it meant Isaac and I were eating differently and one of the biggest lifestyle changes we made probably the middle of 2016 was Isaac and I started to cook our dinners seperately. This was a huge move for us because our evenings revolved around cooking together and it was a part of the day I really enjoyed. It was hard, especially because I’m not an overly great cook, but it’s worked because I’ve always had a meal plan to stick too. I’ve never been obsessive about food though, I’ve had treats over the weekends and never said no too a glass of wine BUT in the past month I’ve stepped it up a notch and am being a little more selective with the lead up to the wedding.
The food side of things I don’t have too much too say because we ate really well before I started to go the gym or see Pip and it honestly wasn’t a HUGE change for me. I didn’t find it hard or challenging because essentially I’m eating the same but just less legumes and soy based naughty treats to help me slim down.
I’ve finally found my jam when it comes to exercise! Even when I joined the gym I thought I’d go 2-3 times a week and slog through it hating every moment. It has been a long road because at the start I didn’t have the confidence to go into the weight section or run on the treadmill. When you first start going I think it’s important to just get there even if you sit on an exercise bike. Just go! When I first started I was doing the plan the trainer gave me in my consultation and I really didn’t love it because it included skipping and a few other things that just didn’t tickle my fancy so slowly I started to make my own routines. It’s important to realise you won’t start off being able to do 137298374938 sit ups or whatever – just go and do a few things until you build up your confidence.
Finding the time of day that works for you is so important too! I was going first thing in the morning however it’s more most productive time of day work wise so I switched to mid-afternoon and it seems to be working so much better. Don’t feel like you have to workout when someone tells you too – work it around your lifestyle.
What started as 2-3 times a week has grown into trying to get there everyday however most weeks I even up going 5-6 times a week. I try to break down my body so a typical week will consistent of 3 core days, 2 arm days, 1 leg day but sometimes if the gym is flat out I’ll just do high intensity cardio. The gym I go too isn’t massive so when it’s busy it’s hard to find floor space. I also try to get out every morning for some fasted cardio so I’ll walk Simba for an hour. This doesn’t happen everyday but we both love getting out first thing so I do my best to get out and get it done.
I feel like once you started shedding some kilos and you feel the difference you almost become a little addicted. It’s that feeling of ‘fuck yeah all my hard work is actually doing something’. I never realised just how unhappy I was with my appearance until I lost my first 3 kilos and I started to actually look at myself in the mirror. It’s funny because as I said earlier I didn’t even set out to loose weight in, I just wanted to feel happy in myself again but as it slowly happened and my clothes started fitting differently it was a good feeling. I felt excited to buy clothes again and I actually liked the way things looked on.
As I said the biggest thing I can say to anyone who is starting the new year with the plan to get really in shape is don’t focus on the scales! Just please forget about the numbers and focus on how you feel. I had a huge plateau at 65.5kg and I sat there for 3 months – probably more! At first I was really fucking annoyed but then I was like my arms are looking more toned and I feel like my stomach is getting there – there are so many other ways to measure your progress! Even how far you’re running or how much you’re lifting at the gym! I only weighed myself once or twice a month and I never weigh myself when I’m on my period because that’s just silly.
Don’t let the scales rule your life.
If anyone is interested the scales I use are the Weight Watchers Body Balance Bluetooth Diagnostic Scale and these are really helpful because you can have an app on your phone. It tracks your body fat, muscle mass and a bunch of other things that are useful to know rather then just a standard weight measurement. I like having the ability to track it all from the app as well BUT if you can be obsessive it maybe best to install only on a device that you don’t have on you at all times! I do think it’s been helpful for me knowing my body fat has been reduced or my muscle mass has increased especially during plateaus.
Something I don’t think is spoken about enough is the emotional journey you go through when you’re changing your lifestyle. Letting go of slobbing out on the couch in your spare time and getting the motivation to get out can be really hard at times. It also can be so fucking hard when you’re working your ass off in the gym and you see little progress for weeks on end. It can make you feel angry, question why you’re doing it and be so hard on yourself. It’s just important to be determined even when you feel like giving up but on the flip side of that also allowing yourself to step back and have breaks when you feel burnt out – for your sanity and the people around you!
What I really struggled/struggling with also is the emotions I face/d seeing your body change. Sure it feels amazing it be so strong, fitter and leaner but with that I’ve gone from a size 12E to a 8-10C/D depending on the brand. It’s a huge change to go from massive boobs to more modest ones…. And trust me they aren’t the prettiest boobs now. It’s been hard to accept that change along with others. I would offer advice but I haven’t really felt like I’ve figured it out yet. Just know you will feel weird, sad but also excited and motivated all at once. It’s fucking confusing.
WHERE I AM NOW
I’m not going to lie the numbers do slightly motivate me right now and I’d love to be under 60kg for the wedding. There is no real reason for that other than I’m so close and it’s an achievable goal for me. In saying that it’s less about the weight right now and more about the areas I’m still not comfortable with which is my mid-section. I just can’t seem to flatten out my stomach or sort out my bloating and it drives me crazy! I will say if I got married tomorrow with where I’m at now I’d be SO happy and I am ridiculously proud of myself.
One last thing I wanted to highlight is that although 13.5kg sounds like alot I’ve done this over 12 months and I’ve never done a 12 week body transformation challenge or whatever it maybe ‘fad’ wise. I think that in order for something to be sustainable it’s all about baby steps! I am also aware I’m standing slightly different in that mirror shot and the lighting isn’t amazing but it’s all I had ready to go. Please be kind because it’s a hard thing to share but hopefully you guys get something out of it. If you’d like to hear more about the type of foods, gym routines or anything like that I’d be happy to do more just let me know!
Have you guys ever made a change and been so shocked on where you go from it?
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